lost

I'm so lost and confused how I feel right now. These crazy thoughts are running through my mind Its like I'm cold one moment and then quickly hot on some bi polar shit. I always wanna think back and ask what if what if, all the possibilities drive me insane. Its come to the point where I blame myself. When in reality, its not something I should do. Its come to the point where I sleep and even dream about it, but about what? Ugh that's so annoying.